Busy busy

So it has been very busy time for me. My eldest had her first majorette competition, and she done brilliant. She only started back in September. 

It has also been very busy for me mentally and my depression has taken a turn for the worse. Today I actually had a cry over my miscarriages and that I cannot have any more kids. Now i do not regret having my ovaries removed. The fear of getting ovarian cancer was much higher than any desire to have another child. Especially with my history of miscarriages. 

Even if you have reoccurring miscarriages it is still possible to have a successful pregnancy. Only 50% of reoccurrence miscarriages is found to be caused by any issues. So for anyone going thru it my tip is go to Councelling as you need to ensure you are emotionally strong for the journey. 

I feel that I’m babbling on here now, a symptom from the depression it’s very hard to keep your mind together especially when you have distractions and god knows our children know how to distract us. 😂